你

我不找你，是因为看见你，听见你声音，我会心动。

你说我不想你，我其实不敢告诉你。

我是这么地不诚实，只因为我太了解自己。

只有让你以为我不在意，才可以让我们彼此分得干干净净。

人，是矛盾的。

这么久了，我只有偶尔不想念你。

你猜不到，也不知道，因为我的演技实在是太逼真了。

开始的你很执著，可是现在你身边有这么多个“她”

你还记得我吗？你还想我吗？

我们是不是都一样，在心爱的人面前装傻？

Anime Fair 2009- Cosplay

Yesterday, I went out with my best friend from High School. Actually we intended to go to the beach for relaxation but later I remembered that I had something to buy but the shopping centre near the beach did not have any Sasa so we decided to go west and when we got to the bus stop, Bus 196 came. So we hop on and went over to Suntec. That was when I saw them.
We were wasting time walking around when I saw some Cosplayers walked by and there were a bunch of Naruto characters and a Yuna from Final Fintasy Ten and they looked so cute! I wanted to take pictures of them but I did not have my camera with me and I was not ready and by the time my phone camera was out, they’d left! And the worst thing was that I don't have any courage. I told my friend that I hope to go over to the conventional hall to take a look. And she agreed.

So we walked over to the conventional hall. As I was on the second floor (the Anime fair is on the fourth floor), I saw Ichigo of Bleach coming down. My phone camera was already out, all I need was the courage to approach him and get his picture so I walked over to him and asked, but Ichigo said that he was going to change. I pleaded with him and he was very kind, he decided to agree. He was my first target and I was so excited that I was shaking. The photo came out blurred and I had to take his picture again. His eyes were orange-yellow, and his sword was so long! Just like Ichigo-Hollow’s sword and eyes. Later, as I was walking away, he was still keeping his sword, I felt so bad about it. My friend said that I was so bad because I didn't help me and I caused trouble for him.

Then we proceed up to the third floor. As we were going up the escalator, I saw Shinn Asuka of Gundam Seed Destiny going down! I was pondering over whether I should run after him and in the end, I thought I should let impulse take over me for once. I got to the third floor, turned and took the escalator down to the second floor by which time, Shinn was already near the second floor escalator, going down to the first floor. I ran towards him and tugged a little at his shirt and asked if I could take his picture (I only managed to remember all my impulsive act AFTER I got his picture). I was still shaking from all the running as I took his picture and without my camera, the photo turned out real blur.

I took the escalator up to the third floor where my friend was waiting very patiently for me. And then we walked on to look for the escalator to go up the fourth floor. As we turned the corner, here comes Lunamarie of GSDestiny. I asked her for a picture but she rejected me as she has ‘knocked off’ so I had no choice because I remembered making Ichigo go through all the trouble. The thing is I only wanted to take their picture. I didn’t need their props anyway but looks like they really love their job so much that they have to go all the way.

Little did I know that I didn’t have to go all the way to the fourth floor. The Cosplayers whom I was aiming for, were all at the third floor. I saw Kakashi (he is so tall and so are his friends, they were in a circle chatting and they didn't see me as I broke into the circle. Kakashi posed for me straight away) of Naruto, Naruto himself (woah I saw Naruto the same time when I saw Zero of Vampire Knight, I went to take Zero’s picture first and when I turned around, poof! Naruto was gone! Some sort of Ninja techinique?), Gintoki of Gintama, Zehel and Ayanami of 07-Ghost, Lavi(I stopped him before he started work, just to take his picture, luckily he was already ready) and Road (she's cute and nice too, she didn't mind taking picture in the middle of the way and she was 'chided' by her friends later for blocking the way) from D.Gray-Man, Aizen (he was chatting with his friends when I came by and he was so kind to let me take pictures of him), Byakuya, Soifon and Hitsugaya of Bleach, Yuuki, Kaname and Zero from Vampire Knight, Loz of Final Fantasy VII, Misa-Misa(she's very nice. She turned her attention to me when I came over even though there was someone else taking her picture) and L of Death Note and many more whom I had no idea of. I walked once from one end to the other, took some pictures and walked back again to check if I had missed out any.

At first, I ran into Kaname twice but he was busy with his own photo taking (as in he was taking pictures of other cosplayers). I waited but I lost sight of him so I walked on. I saw Zero standing near the end of the platform and I caught a glimpse of his tattoo on the neck. I wanted to take the picture of his tattoo but he suddenly walked away. He was walking so fast and there’s wind, I tell you. He walked like a superstar. I chased after him again, submitting to my impulse, and when he didn’t stop, I called, “Zero!”, without any hope that he’ll stop or turn around. But he did! I was a little surprised! I stammered (‘cause Zero is so cute!) and pointed at his tattoo, and he guessed what I wanted. At first he didn’t want to let me take the picture of his tattoo as the tattoo was fading but later, he let me have my way. He even pointed the gun towards the tattoo and the picture was SO ZERO! His way of talking is a little cold and he never smiles. So in character!

I thought I could stay there for hours if my poor friend hasn’t called me to tell me that she had to leave. I had completely forgotten about my poor friend! Water, I'm so sorry!!! I was having such a wonderful time that I realized I hadn’t smile so much since my Japan trip last year. Now I can’t take the cosplayers off my mind……

求救

亮起红灯了！

无声呐喊……

责任

如果你向对方表白心意，却换来一句：“你能给我自由，我就跟你走。”，你会点头还是离开？

感情路本来就不自由，维持感情不自由，婚姻不自由，养小孩也不自由。是对方还没准备好？还是他太幼稚，一厢情愿地以为恋爱也可以很自由？还是一厢情愿的是自己呢？

你这么想，我可以理解。但我就是这样。我想要快乐，但我想要自由。

有人说我这样是因为你不是我的真命天子。

我害怕进入一段又一段失败的感情。我不想要白白努力。因为我知道自己是一旦锁定目标，就会专著地努力，弄得伤痕累累也在所不惜。

我自己呢？不知道。我只知道我怕！怕我再也飞不起来。

Happiness

Slept till 11am this morning, had breakfast and watched TV until now. It’s been a long time since I had such a leisure Sunday. Come to think of it, sometimes we really need to relax, unwind, have fun but sometimes I just can’t bring myself to have fun amidst all the busy schedule.


今天看了一部有关青少年问题的节目，其实想想，谁不是混口饭吃的？谁不想快乐一点？我应该多放轻松点儿，多爱自己点儿，对自己要求低一点儿。只要自己行得正，修得成即可，别去担心这个世界的未来，别去顾虑别人是否懂得替人着想。反正我只是来这个世界做客的，人生短短几十年，说不定我明天就要说拜拜了，看不到未来的。每个人到这个世界来就是受苦的，每个人都在寻找自己的未来。我自己的苦受完了，任务完成了，就回归我原来的地方。我应该没有时间去担心别人的苦。若人之初，性本善，不教，时间到他也会开窍。若人之初，性本恶，再打再骂也是白费唇舌。何苦强求？

negative and extreme

If one is living stupidly, might as well go and die.

Why are we always creating opportunities for the hopeless and talentless?

Waste time, waste money, waste resources.

Adding stress to the Talented and Hopefuls.

Rotten ones should just continue to rot, we should all know where we stand.

Dying

Weather changing recently. Feels kinda like winter, really. Holiday is in the air kind of feeling. *Cross fingers* and sincerely hope that this will last till the end of December.

This feeling, really reminds me of last year's Japan trip with one of my favourite friends. The weather was cooling, the 2 of us claded in cute winter wear, walking in the cold night of Japan streets.

Holiday's getting shorter as we grow older. Things change though I hated changes. Boss last time said that no unnecessary meetings allowed, now with a change of Head, we had meetings almost every week and Boss said nothing. Last time Boss said we shouldn't come back when we are on leave, now we come back even when we're on leave due to the change in Head again, Boss said nothing.

Life's getting bitter, leisure getting rarer, stress level getting higher and we are all moody.

I really can't wait for my break to come......It's a season to be jolly~ Lala lala laa~ lalalala! (a bit early I know. Can't help it.)